WHAT IF......

What if.... Every one knew the exact moment, and how they died?
Would you live your life differently?
Would you do everything you could possibly do, and die with satisfaction?

For me, I would love people unconditionally everyday.
I would tell the people closest to me how important they are to me every second I get.
 If i knew when, and how I would die, I would want to do everything that the Lord has planned for me.          I would tell the world about the power of God.
I would show the world his endless love, and mercy.
I would spend as much time with my family.
I would enjoy life, and look for the best in every situation.I would want to make a difference, and stand up for what I believe him
But, these are things i should do on a daily basis.
I wouldn't live my life differently, I would just try to live my life to the fullest every single day.
I think for some people it might change their lives drastically if they knew this much.
They would live in fear of what is to come, rather than living day by day making the best out of life's challenges.
The sad part is we don't know when, and how we will die.
The only person who knows this is God, he doesn't want us to fret about something we have no control over.
God wants us to wake up every day and thank him for blessing us with another glorious day to live for him.
That is what I want my life to look like every day.
I want to wake up serving him, and fall asleep praising him for everything he did that day.
This is what we need to do, stand up for what we believe in EVERY single day of our lives. 

Austin Lee Crotinger

This boy changed my life forever.
I have been dating him for almost 2 years now, and it has truly been the happiest time of my life.
He really is my very best friend, and it is crazy how alike we are.
Normally I cannot be myself without people thinking I am weird.
But he loves my weird, crazy, and goofy side.
It makes him laugh
I know I sound like I am quoting a line from a movie about how "perfect" he is,
but in reality God blessed me with a wonderful man.
He is everything I ever dreamed of and so much more.
I am happiest when I am with him.
I miss him every second I am without him.
He recently went off to college last fall, and it was hard not seeing him everyday,
but it has brought us closer together now that he has moved away.
We make an effort to FaceTime daily, and those moments we are facetiming i feel
like I am with him, and it makes me feel close to him again.
Yes, some days it is really tough when I just want to come home and see him, but it has made me appreciate him in a whole different way.
I hope that I am lucky enough to marry him, I know we both want nothing more than to marry each other.
It just includes waiting for both of us to graduate college and get jobs, then we can start our forever.
I seriously cannot picture my life without him, he always strengthens me, cheers me up when I am down, will always be so sweet when I need him to be.
We both still have a lot of growing up to do, but i love that I have the opportunity to watch him grown just in the past two years.
Our relationship has grown so solid, and it has come to the point that both of our lives are falling into place.
We both know what career path we want to choose, and whole-heartily support each others dreams.
All I want in life is to marry Austin, and have a happy life, because even if I'm not rich or anything I know that I will have all I ever dreamed of with him.
He was the boy who swept in, and changed my life.
I cannot thank God enough for placing this boy in my life.
He is the best thing that ever happened to me.    

Engulfing

Engulf.... to surround, completely cover, or to overwhelm.
Every person has something that engulfs your life.

Jesus engulfs my life.
My family engulfs my life,
Austin engulfs my life.

What is engulfing your life?
 Some people find positive things to engulf their lives.
Some people might choose negative things to engulf their lives.
I personally think that people should choose something positive to engulf their life.
You want something positive overwhelming your life.
If it is not good for you, and its surrounding your life, what kind of influence and affect will it have on you?

I want Jesus to engulf my entire life, to day Fill Me Up with him, and his never-ending love.
I want my family, and Austin to engulf my life with love, affection, and encouragement.
 I want to live a happy life, that has so much meaning, and in order to obtain that i need to surround
my life with positive things that can only bring me up and not down.
I want to share my happiness with others, so i want to overwhelm people with love and encouragement, just like my family always does for me. 

Everyone has low points in there life, moments where they are overwhelmed with hurt, self-worth, and depression. These are the times they need to take a glace to see what is truly the focus of their lives.
What can they let completely overwhelm their lives that can change it for the better.

So again ask yourself......

What is engulfing your life?

FEAR

Fear... is something that gets the best of everybody.
Certain people have a fear of specific things.
Fear can consume some peoples lives, or it can hold them back from things.

My fears include:
Snakes, Heights, and being Kidnapped.
From experiences i have grown to fear snakes & heights, but I adapted a fear of being kidnapped
from all of the crime television shows.
I love watching these crime shows, but it TERRIFIES me, the thought of some one kidnapping me.
My fears alter the way i live my life.
I lock every single door in my house when i'm home alone, I will not go off a path in the woods because of snakes, and I will not stand close to the ledge on a tall building.
When I am to high up and able to see down, I may have an anxiety attack.

What possesses our minds to be overcome by fear?
Psychologists debate over a fear being formed by past experiences or it's formed by nature.
I believe fear is created by past experiences that created you to fear something.
I wasn't afraid of any of these things until bad experiences, or being influenced by my surrondings.
Fear is hard to overcome but is possible.

Have you overcome fears in your life?
I feel like I don't have a reason to rid of fear of snakes, and heights.
But I would like to maybe try and rid the Fear of being kidnapped, so maybe
I could stay at home by myself without being scared out of my mind.

Fear is something as humans we create, but the question is are you trying to rid of it, or are you
letting it take over your life?

Frightening
Engulfing
Amplifying
Repeating

Jung Typology

I AM A.....ESFJ

EXTRAVERT, SENSING, FEELING, JUDGING kind of person.

Does this really describe me?
YES, I was surprised at how accurate the results were to my actual personality.
The results said I was conscientious, dependable, outgoing, and talkative.
Words that sum my personality up precisely.

The results for my learning style say that I like a structured learning environment,
enjoy group activities, find it difficult to concentrate with distractions, and only like learning information that has value. At first I was shocked by this, but after I really thought about how I achieve the most success, I came to the realization I am all of those things. I am the type of person who likes structure so much, that I have to set in the same seat at all times, especially when taking a test. I also get distracted easily and then my mind will stop focusing and start thinking about other thoughts. Nothing aggravates me more than learning pointless information that will not help me, and lastly I love working in groups it helps me understand things quicker.

Next, I looked at my writing style, and technique results, and I was not surprised at all when
it described exactly the writer I am. There is nothing I find easier than writing a paper about past experiences, or things that I have emotions about. I find it hard for me to write papers about theoretical things because I tend to make it sound too sentimental. One last thing about this section that really stood out to me was when it said that I like to really focus on pleasing the readers, I know this problem is a huge factor in all of my writing. I want to make the audience feel what I am feeling, or try to impact them to things they understand.

Lastly, as I was glancing over the writing process, I really wasn't sure about my writing process.
 Yes, I want to create an outline, but not with specified details,
my outlines focus more on the main part of the whole paper. Personally, I like to then, from my outline, start writing a rough draft. As I write this rough draft I write all of it, and then I sit down and revise it. I like to see what I can make more complex, and try to create a fluent, flowing paper.
The only one I felt like really was like me was the structured details, I need to know as many details like; length, style, due date, how complex, as soon as you introduce the assignment.

Overall I was impressed of how accurate this test was, and I can really seeing it help me
have a better idea what ways I can improve my learning, inner self, and writing.

Bad Haircuts

Everyone has had a bad haircut.
Maybe not as a teenager or adult, but when mom loved your hair in a certain style that she loved.
The MULLET,my mom loved me to have this haircut, i rocked a mullet from 2 to about 6.
WHAT IN THE WORLD WAS SHE THINKING?
i had the weirdest hair, and it was not cute whatsover.
i have SO many pictures from my mullet days that i hope someday get thrown away, very soon.
My mom made my brother rock a bowl cut, man did his head look weird shaped with that hairdo.
Why do moms think certain hair styles are so cute, in reality everybody is laughing at them, but the mom.

Note to all mothers out there: DO NOT EVER GIVE YOUR CHILD A HAIRCUT THAT IS UGLY, JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK IT'S ADORABLE. ACTUALLY PICK A CUTE ONE PLEASE......
WE NEED NON-EMBARRASSING PHOTOS TO SHOW OUR FUTURE SPOUSES.

Sincerly,
A child who suffered from a horrible haircut. 

Having An Older Brother

Where do i begin.....

Having an older brother can be good, bad, or ugly. For me having an older brother helped shape me into the person i am today. Yes, ALL my childhood involved being picked on, and fighting with him, but i wouldn't change a second of it. I can remember all the fun, memorable stories we have. One day he forced me to eat a worm, he would always have me ask mom what cuss words meant, and would run over me with his bike. I could go on and on with thousands of crazy things we did, most of them mean not good. My brother graduated and moved out when i was 13, that was 5 years ago.... and we have just gradually grown apart. I miss having my brother there at home every night, even when he was picking on me. I know how much my brother regrets picking on me, but it did create a phase where I didn't want to be around him he was so mean to me. But now I can reflect on all that and just miss those times, that was how we acted. That was us, my parents may have gotten annoyed with it, but we didn't care that was how we had fun. I talk to my brother through texting a couple times a week, but we are both so busy we rarely have time to hang out. Its bittersweet to know that we will probably never go back to being inseparable, but we are growing up and starting our future. I know that he regrets a lot of things he did, and tries to give me advice on how I should do things so I don't make the same mistakes, but I feel like that's all he says to me anymore. I hope that someday soon we can begin spending more time together.

So if anyone is reading this i encourage you to never lose touch with your siblings, they are a HUGE part of who you are. They were always there doing silly stuff as a child, picking on you, cuddling up to you taking naps. So don't let talking to them slip away, make the effort to say in touch with them as much as possible or you will regret it.

Abbey

Lincoln Log

I never played with Lincoln logs as a child. I never thought they were cool, you just stack pieces of wood on top of each other. But i do remember one time playing with them in recess, and i made a log cabin. Most of the time when we had to stay inside for recess I would play house, and I always had to be the one with a husband, and be the mother. I loved the idea of being the one in charge with the boy, and the other girls would listen to me. One day i kissed the boy I was playing house with, I ended up getting mono and strep through at the age of 7. It was a miserable time for me, I was terrified of needles and had to get my finger pricked. I can remember the little pool of blood, and how the sound scared me more than the actual needle piercing my skin. Maybe that was what drove me to be scared of needles, but still at the age of 18 I'm terrified of needles. I cry almost every time I have to get a shot. Since i want to be a nurse hopefully it doesn't bother me to give other people shots, I don't think it will. My luck I'll pass out and I won't be able to do it. I will have to get over my fear, that's my dream job so I'll have to learn how to give shots. I really want to be a nurse, that's what i wanted since I was little, i contemplated if i really wanted to pursue that profession, but i keep going back to it. I feel like that's where God is calling me in life, and it's comforting that that's been my dream since a young age. I graduated early from High School so i could obtain that dream job faster, and go with my mom on mission trips to Haiti and help our orphans in our orphanage medically. I want to be able to just go to Haiti and love on the babies, and give them a simple vaccination that  could save their life. I want to love my job, and love what I'm doing with my life and i feel like i would really love that.

My name is Abbey.
I am not a fan,
I am a FOLLOWER of Jesus Christ.
My boyfriend, family, and food are my favorite things,
which will be what most of my posts are about.
And that's my life.